when people think you are going to itikaf, but you are actually update your blog

Well, until now, this is the longest post title i've made
Now here, mean 12 july 2k15
Well, the title fit me well now

What can i say, i've done some shit today
Read quran and else
But, it's ok right, to keep updating this blog?

Well, i've just realized something
That, i'm turning into a different person now
I mean, that 3 imaginary friends i told you earlier
Really influencing me now

FR, she's help me to get rid of my writer block
XX, make me want to learn about a lot o' things
And SP, she's making me think about many things
And i'm turning into em'
Wait, into em' didn't mean i'm turning into a girl
I mean, if you combine them, turning them into a boy
And, that's me...

Well, i've just thinking, a cup of coffe would be great to accompany me now
Well, thanks to the environment around me
Sounds of a couple o' person reading quran, sounda of ceiling fan, warm yellow lamp, and cold weather
Give me some coffe, a laptop, and a friend to talk with, and i can write a whole "founded" chapter of my project,called as "Founded, Hurted, Rescued" (call it FHR)

Well, i'm a little bit tired you know
I almost sync my sleeping schedule, and, i can sleep at 1 am now
And it's 1.14 am

Let me tell you bout' something else
FYI, i almost turn this blog into an indonesian language blog, a few days ago
But, i cancel that post, and keep it english
Mmm, you know, i have a different source of inspiration
The one, that give me some inspiration in english, always flow freely
And the other source, that give me idea in bahasa
Cant flow freely, for an unknown reason

Well, it's getting a little bit darker now
Well, it was time for night pray, and they turned off the lamp in the mid room
But, not in the left and right wing
Well, why i'm still updating this blog?
I have one important job to do
Keeping my stuff safe

Well, let's talk bout something else...
Hmm...
The question is, what?
I have nothing to...
Wait, there's something happen
There's a mom around me
Do something with her phone, i dont know what, but i think, she's opening her social media account
Well, what's the difference with me then?
The difference is, she's a girl, with 3 son and 1 daughter, her daughter are crying, and he still hold her phone, like there's nothing happen
A bad kind of parent right?

Well, let's talk bout' something else
Well, i'm tired...
That's it, and...
Bye!
xoxo

when the last time i post something?

Well, the answer of that question is
A few days ago...
But, it feels weird that i abandon this blog for a couple of days

Ok, i will tell you something
I've just get rid of my writer block! \^v^/
Well, a few post ago, when i post about being too tired
I start my project again, and now, using 3rd person POV
Well, i'm a little bit stuck again, i don't know what the main character name i shall give
And....
Well...

I'm a little bit bored right now
And i'm gonna tell you something

Remember about my imaginary friend?, FR?
Just like what i tell you in the earlier post
She's just an interpretation of my character
What if i tell you, i still have XX and SP beside me
And, yeah, three imaginary friends
And, all of em' are a girl
Ok, i will describe em' for you
Start with FR, she's an interpretation for creativity, freedom, social responsibility and nature
XX, interpretation of logic, science, and knowledge
Last, it's SP, interpretation of Revolution, open minded, and difference

Ok, maybe, i'm done with this
I need to go, this phone is getting overheated
Ciao!
xoxo

give up (help me!)

Ok, it's been 13 and half hour i didn't sleep to synchronize my sleeping schedule with my routine schedule...
Maybe, i just gonna sleep for a couple o' hour, and wake to update this blog again, and play some game

Wait, i remember, this kind of moment, ever happen to me before, i didn't sleep, for more than 24 hour!
Well, that moment, i slept until 1 pm, and stay awake till' 3 pm tomorow, it's 25 hour
How can i stay so long?
School, and shit....
I almost sleep at school that day

Well, cut this crap...
I need your help
I'm trying to work on my new project, and i need a name
Yep, a name for the main character
Well, she's (yep, a girl), a detective, metropolitan women, worker, born in a police family
And, local, i mean, she's insider, not a foreigner
Maybe you can give me some advice?
Contact me if you have any!

Well, i'm tired, and need some rest
Bye
xoxo

came out of nowhere

Ok, i tell you something
That, i've got an idea now! XD
You know, it just came out of nowhere
And, i feel inspired now...

Wait, who feel inspired at 3.17 dawn?
Well, what if i tell you, idea, came everytime
Maybe, we've just miss it whe it comes

Ehm, ok, i just wanna tell you something
Well, i actually want to post some satire shit here
Some sarcasm article
But, you know, it's a heavy shitload
I didn't think, this blog can accept something that heavy
Let's make some analogy now
This blog is a glass, i usually fill it with water, sometimes juice or milk
And, one day, i fill it with a barrel of gasoline, add a kilo's of RDX, and burn it
So, that glass will break (Even before i burn it)

Well, i will try to calibrate my sleeping time today
Syncrhonize it with my routine sleeping schedule
So, i will wake up at 6 o'clock everyday
I will tell you the method
First, i need to tell you, that i still didn't sleep yet since 7pm yesterday
In number, it's already 9 hour
I need to reach 24 hour, to sleep
The logic is, when you stay awake for 24 hour, with a small amount of rest in the middle, you will sleep everytime you rest, anything happen
I will try this method, it's though, but i'll try it
Because, my laptop and PC always accompany me

Well, i need to tell you something
Since 4th July, a few days ago
Every post in this blog, is considered as a part of my daily writing challange
What i must do, with that challange?
The answer is simple, i must write at least one thing everyday, an essay, opinion, poem, fiction work, even a diary like this
Indonesian, english, javanese, or even russian cyrillyc
All kind of that shit, is acceptable

Well, it's been a long time, i didn't tell you anything about FR
Well, it's been a long time too, i didn't hear anything from her
And, again, i told you that FR is an imaginary friends
She's only an interpretation of my mind, usually when i write about frienship or love, well, sometimes she's come whenever she want to come

Well, i'm trying to dug my mind again, to tell you whatever i want to tell you

And, i've found something great right now
I'm still fell...
How to express that feeling?
Uh, let me express it with whatever word i can pick
Weird
I feel weird, because, this blog, is turning into an english language blog
I mean, a blog that use english i every post
Well, i dont have any problem with that
But, how about you?
I mean, i have a couple o' friends who understand english
Some of em' can speak english influently
But, how about the rest?
My friend, who understand english (i mean, really understand it), just like what i said, not too many
And the rest of it
Uh, i dont know about them...

Well, maybe it's time to go
Bye!
xoxo

silently, thinking

Ok, i want to tell you about a couple o' things
Sorry, did i say a couple?
It's actually, more than a couple o' things

First, i want to confess something...
That, i fall in love right now
With who?
Let the time answer...

Second, i'm bored as f*ck right now...
You know, the feeling when you haven't meet your friend for a long time
Yep, that feeling fit me right now

Third, well, i've just try to install steam again on my laptop, and it works! \^v^/

Fourth, emm, maybe the last, because my mom told me to sleep
Well, i'm a little bit confused, why this blog, turned into an english language blog
Well, i'll tell you about it later

Need to go!
Au revoir !
xoxo

i'm bored as hell

Lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala

Cut this crap immideately
I'm bored right now
I'm waiting for....

Dadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadada

And still didn't come

I'm bored as hell
Maybe look like a drunken man
But, a combination between love and boredom
Is messy

Trapped, in a sinkhole full of love, and boredomness
Make me stressed out
I'll sleep earlier now, think about that love, and forget about boredomness

Bye...
xoxo

hoping too much

Well, a few month ago, i talk with one of my friend
I forgot, what are we talking about, actually
But, i remember, i said
"Remember, don't hope too much, or you will lost so much"
And, she said (yeah, she's a girl)
"Yep, that's right"

And i'm trapped in that phase of life
Where you hope too much...
Well, maybe, it's because i'm bored
Or, because i'm hungry

Well, whatever the reason is, i'm hoping for many things now
Inspiration and idea, friends that geeky enough to talk with me, a book, gaming laptop, and a girlfriend...

Well, let's cross the border, let's get out from the topic

Well, what shall i do now?
It's 4.55 in the morning, it's too late to eat something, and too early to do everyday shit
So, i'm trapped in a gap between dawn, and day

What shall i do?
If you have any advice for me, give it straight to me...

Well, let's get back to the topic
So, is hope for something is bad?
No, it's not bad, just, dont hope for something too much
For you, who still hope too much, i have some advice for you
Hope, then act
Simple right?
Sound's simple, how about do it?
That's the hardest part

Well, i'll stop this post here, gonna take a bath ASAP
And, bye!
xoxo