Akbar's journal: Juli 2015

Kamis, 30 Juli 2015

That fluffy marsupial

Hwehehehe, i've just saw a nice pic of a marsupial animal
Called quokka...
uuhhhh, it's cute!
Fluffy, and fatty
and, it's the happiest animal in the world...
Emm, many people want to have it, as a pet
but, huh, you simply can't...
It was threatened, well, at least it's counted as vulnerable, you can still found it in the wild
You can found it in Australia, especially around Southwest, Rottsnest island,bald island, and albany

Well, want to know something, well, it's science
Ok, let's talk about taxonomy, here the taxonomy chart

Kingdom : Animalia
Phylum : Chordata
Class : Mammalia
Order : Diprotodontia
Family : Macropodidae
Subfamily : Macropodinae
Genus : Setonix (It's the only animal with 'setonix' Genus)
Binominal/Scientific name : Setonix Brachyurus
Common name : Quokka

whether you want to call it quokka, or other name, it's still cute, and adorable!
Remember what i mention you earlier?, about it's habitat?
it's usually live around dense vegetation that close to water (usually close to the beach)
It has brown, dark red, or gray fur
And, it's photogenic!

Well, if you want to look for a quokka there, dont forget to bring a plant that classified as Guichenotia, they like it!

And,uhh, how sad, it's now classified as 'Vulnerable'
It's threatened in the Australian mainland, threatened by the Dog, Fox, Dingo, and Cat
Well, it's still not threatened too much in other offshore island, it's safe there

And, maybe its time to go
I post this in my class....
bye!
xoxo

Selasa, 28 Juli 2015

Trying to make this blog a little bit useful...

uhh, it's been a long time since the last time i post something
and, uhh
Maybe, i'm gonna post something useful in this blog :D
Uh, maybe a couple o' article or writing shit i make

Umm, let's start with...
Sedna's closest encounter on sun, is 76 AU away from sun
1 AU is same with the lenght between the sun and earth
and, it's Aphelion (Farthest encounter) is 936 AU away from the earth
I will give you some wikipedia refference here!

Umm, maybe i need to go now, i'm updating this blog at school, and i need to go home
Bye!

Kamis, 23 Juli 2015

Well....

Well...
i just want to tell you something
My friend ask me to review her story
What can i say, there's some grammatical error there, and else

and i need to go now :v
bye!
xoxo!

Selasa, 21 Juli 2015

Just want to say goodbye...

Ok, i made this post, to say goodbye...
Just like what i've told you yesterday, i cant update this blog, routine
Well, the phone i usually use, get bootlooped, and i cant fix it

Ok, let me tell you what happen today, Bag of cholestrol, an import book, travel, and a lot of shoes
Ok, i eat some fast food, travel, bought new book and shoes...
that's it

Ok, i often think about her again, emm, you know...
And, i've got a new idea, i must continue my deserted work
Mainland
The main idea of Project Surabaya, but with a slightly different plot

Well, wanna say goodbye now
hope can see you soon...
bye
xoxo

Senin, 20 Juli 2015

De-Routine

Ok, i want to tell you something
I cant post something routine now...
Maybe for a couple o' days, weeks, months, name it all

What happen?
The thing that actually happen is my mom cellphone is, for an unknown reason, broken
for an unknown reason, it gets bootlooped....
I've try to reset it, take out the battery, and, nothing happen, it just get bootlooped
Maybe its a medium or hard bootloop

Well, maybe i need too go
With this, i want to tell you, goodbye
Hope can see you soon, whoever you are
xoxo

Jumat, 17 Juli 2015

First day

Ok, it's the first ied fitr day, it's friday, and i ate a lot this day
Well, i want to tell you some stories

Well, at the morning, i just wake up and do what shall i do in the morning
And then wait till' 10 am, wait till first group of my big family member
Well, the next is not too important
And, we pass all the event till 12, after friday pray
Me, and my family come to the other family member house
And, the road is...
What can i say, quiet, almost empty
There's only a few car around me

And i love that kind of situation
Make me want to write the first project again

Ok, skip all of that things till nite, when i play KSP
And, other family member come
At 19.30 (i think)
And, well, nothing special, to be honest, i just spend the whole time reading about kuiper belt, TNO's, and oort cloud
Well, i've just being a nerd again

Ok, i need to go, need some rest, tomorrow, i gonna go somewhere with my bike or playing KSP
Bye!
xoxo (nobody tell me why xoxo mean kiss and hug, so, i search it for myself and found the answer)

Kamis, 16 Juli 2015

Ied Mubarak All!

Well, it's 20.54 at night, and 16/07/2015
And, it's the last day of ramadhan!
*uraaa
Well, tomorow, there will be many foods here, in my house, and when i'm bored with the food here
I can go to my neighbour or other family member house, and eat!
And, there is a possibility to be a rich person tomorow

Ok, it's a little bit loud right here, and when i ask one of my friend, she said, it's loud too there
the sounds of firework, firecracker, and other stuff (Including takbir) are here, i'm afraid that one of of that sounds around me is a military class explosion (?)
Well, if you want some kind of artilery battle feeling, you can wait till' the new year, and come to the nearest firework party, but , dont get too close, get a little bit far (500m maybe work), and look for a quiet place, wait till 00.00, and feel it

Ok, i'm talking too much shit now
I need to continue my kerbal space program rocket
Well, if you think, kerbal space program is only an ordinary game, i'll proof you are wrong
I will tell you how to orbit

First, you need to adjust your orbiting speed
The relation between orbital speed and acceleration is given by the formula:

a={\frac {v^{2}}{r}},

where a is the acceleration due to gravity, v is the horizontal speed, and r is the radius of orbit.
Of course, gravity varies depending on your distance from the planet, so we also need the following formula to determine a based on your altitude:

a=g\left({\frac {R}{R+h}}\right)^{2},

where g is the acceleration due to gravity at sea level (9.807 m/s²), R is the radius of Kerbin (600 km), and h is the altitude of your orbit.
Note: Since the radius of your orbit r is equal to the radius of Kerbin R plus your altitude h, we can substitute R + h for r.
Now we have two expressions for a, so we set them on opposite sides of an equation and simplify:

{\begin{aligned}g\left({\frac {R}{(R+h)}}\right)^{2}&={\frac {v^{2}}{r}}\\g\left({\frac {R}{(R+h)}}\right)^{2}&={\frac {v^{2}}{R+h}}\\g{\frac {R^{2}}{(R+h)^{2}}}&={\frac {v^{2}}{R+h}}\\g{\frac {R^{2}}{R+h}}&=v^{2}\\v^{2}&=g{\frac {R^{2}}{R+h}}\\v&={\sqrt {g{\frac {R^{2}}{R+h}}}}\\v&=R{\sqrt {{\frac {g}{R+h}}}}\\\end{aligned}}

Finally, substituting known values for g and R,

v=600\ 000\ {\mathrm {m}}{\sqrt {{\frac {9.807\ {\mathrm {m}}/{\mathrm {s}}^{2}}{600\ 000\ {\mathrm {m}}+h}}}}

And then, the orbital period
From the basic mechanics formula:

d=vt

We know v from the above, and d is simply the circumference of a circle with a radius equal to your orbital altitude plus the radius of Kerbin:

t=2\pi {\frac {600\ 000\ {\mathrm {m}}+h}{v}}

And, last but not least, orbital equation
For this section it is assumed that the craft in question is orbiting a particular body and is a lot smaller than the body that it is orbiting. Other then in the general orbital equation and the energy equation, the orbits are assumed to be bounded orbits completely within the body's sphere of influence and no others. This section also assumes that classical physics applies in the game. All distances and radii are from the center of the body being orbited and the sea level radius of the body needs to be added to the altitude given in game to recover the values here. The section uses the standard gravitational parameter

\mu =GM

which

G

is Newton's Gravitational Constant and

M

is the mass of the body that is being orbited. From here on out

m

will refer to the mass of the craft.
When the craft is orbiting a body, the distance between the craft and the body is given by the equation

r(\phi )={\frac {l^{2}}{\mu m^{2}}}{\frac {1}{1+\epsilon cos\phi }}

where

l

is the angular momentum of the craft,

\epsilon

is the eccentricity of the orbit, and

\phi

is an angle parameter for the orbit.

\phi

runs from

0\deg

360\deg

l=m\cdot r\cdot v

at apoapsis or periapsis, and

\epsilon \geq 0

. When

\epsilon <1

the orbit is bounded and is an ellipse and when

\epsilon \geq 1

the orbit is unbounded. At

\phi =0\deg

the craft is at the periapsis and at

\phi =180\deg

the craft is at the apoapsis. At periapsis,

r_{p}={\frac {l^{2}}{\mu m^{2}}}{\frac {1}{1+\epsilon }}

and at apoapsis,

r_{a}={\frac {l^{2}}{\mu m^{2}}}{\frac {1}{1-\epsilon }}

.
The semimajor axis is

a={\frac {l^{2}}{\mu m^{2}}}{\frac {1}{1-\epsilon ^{2}}}

and the semiminor axis is

b={\frac {l^{2}}{\mu m^{2}}}{\frac {1}{{\sqrt {1-\epsilon ^{2}}}}}

\epsilon ={\frac {{\sqrt {a^{2}-b^{2}}}}{a}}

Given the results for

r_{p}

and

r_{a}

above,

l^{2}=2\mu m^{2}{\frac {r_{p}r_{a}}{r_{p}+r_{a}}}

and

\epsilon ={\frac {r_{a}-r_{p}}{r_{p}+r_{a}}}

thus

r(\phi )=2{\frac {r_{p}r_{a}}{r_{p}+r_{a}+(r_{a}-r_{p})cos\phi }}

The velocity for an object in elliptical orbit about a much larger object is

v={\sqrt {\mu ({\frac {2}{r}}-{\frac {1}{a}})}}={\sqrt {\mu {\frac {r_{p}^{2}+r_{a}^{2}+(r_{a}^{2}-r_{p}^{2})cos\phi }{r_{p}r_{a}(r_{p}+r_{a})}}}}={\sqrt {2\mu {\frac {r_{p}+r_{a}-r}{r(r_{p}+r_{a})}}}}

.
The energy for an object in orbit is

E={\frac {\mu ^{2}m^{3}}{2l^{2}}}(\epsilon ^{2}-1)={\frac {\mu m(r_{p}+r_{a})}{4r_{p}r_{a}}}(\epsilon ^{2}-1)=-{\frac {\mu m}{r_{p}+r_{a}}}

.
One should note that for bounded orbits, the energy is negative and for escape orbits, energy is non-negative.
The orbital period is

\tau ={\sqrt {{\frac {4\pi ^{2}}{\mu }}a^{3}}}={\sqrt {{\frac {\pi ^{2}(r_{p}+r_{a})^{3}}{2\mu }}}}

.
Let

r_{{c,1}}

and

r_{{o,1}}

be the two apsides of a given orbit and let a craft execute a burn imparting a specific

\Delta v

all at the single point in time the craft is at

r_{{c,1}}

. For this problem

\Delta v

can be either positive or negative. If it is positive then the thrust is to speed up the craft but if it is negative the ture delta v is the oppositie of that in the problem but the thrust is to slow down the craft. This problem assumes that the thust is in the same or opposite direction of travel and is not enough to reverse the craft. The new orbit will have apsides of

r_{{c,2}}

and

r_{{o,2}}

with

r_{{c,2}}=r_{{c,1}}

.
The speed of the craft before the burn is

v_{1}={\sqrt {2\mu {\frac {r_{{c,1}}+r_{{o,1}}-r_{{c,1}}}{r_{{c,1}}(r_{{c,1}}+r_{{o,1}})}}}}={\sqrt {2\mu {\frac {r_{{o,1}}}{r_{{c,1}}(r_{{c,1}}+r_{{o,1}})}}}}

.
The speed of the craft after the burn is

v_{2}=v_{1}+\Delta v={\sqrt {2\mu {\frac {r_{{c,2}}+r_{{o,2}}-r_{{c,2}}}{r_{{c,2}}(r_{{c,2}}+r_{{c,2}})}}}}={\sqrt {2\mu {\frac {r_{{o,2}}}{r_{{c,1}}(r_{{c,1}}+r_{{o,2}})}}}}={\sqrt {2\mu {\frac {r_{{o,1}}}{r_{{c,1}}(r_{{c,1}}+r_{{o,1}})}}}}+\Delta v

which yields

\Delta v={\sqrt {{\frac {2\mu }{r_{{c,1}}}}}}({\sqrt {{\frac {r_{{o,2}}}{r_{{c,1}}+r_{{o,2}}}}}}-{\sqrt {{\frac {r_{{o,1}}}{r_{{c,1}}+r_{{o,1}}}}}})

and

r_{{o,2}}=r_{{c,1}}{\frac {r_{{c,1}}({\sqrt {2\mu {\frac {r_{{o,1}}}{r_{{c,1}}(r_{{c,1}}+r_{{o,1}})}}}}+\Delta v)^{2}}{2\mu -r_{{c,1}}({\sqrt {2\mu {\frac {r_{{o,1}}}{r_{{c,1}}(r_{{c,1}}+r_{{o,1}})}}}}+\Delta v)^{2}}}=r_{{c,1}}{\frac {r_{{c,1}}v_{2}^{2}}{2\mu -r_{{c,1}}v_{2}^{2}}}

Well, still thinking that game give you nothing?
Think again

Well, i want to go now
continue build some rocket
Bye!
xoxo (well, is there anyone know why "xoxo" means hug and kiss?)

Ps. Again, Ied Mubarak All!

headache

Ok, i've got some headache now
For an unknown reason
I hope, my three imaginary friends are here now
And, i'm hoping for Froze and Robo too

Cut this
I've just found something on my facebook wall
A children, that psychologically immature
Already have a girlfriend
*crying internally
And, one of his friend, swear at me (with pejorative meaning) when i post some sarcastic meme
I....
I feel, so weird right now
I live in the middle of the gap between the 20th century generation, and the 21st generation
A gap, where i can play gameboy on a roadside rental, while holding an android smartphone
Where i can play gobak sodor, when hearing some dubstep (i'm not a bad guy just because i hear some dubstep right?)

Well, lets talk bout something else
Well, i've just re-read my project surabaya first draft
And, crap, its the worst

Well, i know, first draft always the worst...

Hmm, is there anything else to talk?
No?
Ok, it's time for me to go!
LOL (acronym for Lots Of Love)
Bye!
xoxo

Ps. This is the last day of ramadhan, tomorow is ied fitri, and i will post intensely tomorow!

Rabu, 15 Juli 2015

darn it

Darn, a slang term people used to say damn
Some says its more polite
But, crap that
I just want to fill this blog with a post

Umm, sorry, i'm a little bit tantrum there...
I...

Oh, fak this
My mom told me to sleep again
This is the reason why i cant post yesterday
Well, my mom prevent me to do my hobby, even if its the positive one, better than smoking weed or dringking some beer

Bye dude
Hope frost beside me
xoxo

Selasa, 14 Juli 2015

no goddamn idea

Ok, i have no goddamn idea now
With a mom who preventing me to stay awake...
Well, there will be a guest coming at 11
And i know, if i sleep now, i will miss it...
That was a goddamn preschool logic

Ok, stop using goddamn now
I still have no idea, and its 14 july

Oh darn it, i want to talk with someone
But, there is no one geeky enough to talk with me now...
How about my imaginary friend?
Ok, even if i have an imaginary friends, i still cant talk with em'
I mean, c'mon, even the dumbest guy on earth know that talking with air is insane

Ok, this post is swearing overload
I need to go cake
I hope frost is here now
xoxo

Senin, 13 Juli 2015

Always in the wrong time

Ok mate, now, i want to tell you something that happen last night
I've just discovered something, really nice, and not nice

Last night, i've just continue to write some crime story, in indonesian
And, for an unknown reason, i can't stop till i really tired
Ok, that is the nice one, and the other is, not the nice one
That, i forget how to write with 3rd person POV
Really, it feels like write something, that not flowing
I mean, a story is meant to be flowing
Ok, my story is still moving forward, but, it feels like lag, i mean, you just jump from a part to another
And, when i changed it with 1st person POV, my story flow freely
Ok, that is happen, because i wrote this blog with 1st person POV

Let's change topic
I can write a lot of things last night, it feels like, there is a lot of idea, waiting to be writed in my mind
Sometimes its happen, oh, its actually, always happen
And, its routine, always happen everyday, almost in the same time
And the time is...
Midnight...
Well, that is why i cant finish my project soon, because, i simply aren't allowed to write at night
And, yeah, my idea always flow freely when there is no adult around me
Inspiration always come to me when im tired, and want to sleep
And, idea almost always come in the wrong time

Well, i'm tired now
Need to sleep mate
xoxo

Minggu, 12 Juli 2015

calming

Morning, my friend, i just wanna tell you
That i almost vomit this morning
Well, i eat too much, a box of rice, chicken, egg, and else at 1 am, continue with batagor, and another box of rice at 3 am
But, that's not the point i want to tell you this morning

That, i feel calmed
By the environment, by the small cluster of cloud that pass me with a high speed, with a red magenta gradation that come from the east, the nature ambience, and else, this post is not enough for me to describe it all

I look at the sky, and the only thing i can see, is color gradation between pale blue and light grey, with some dark grey cloud hanging above me
I bet, this cloud contain ash, and material from raung eruption

Umm, maybe, it's time to go mate
For the first time, i'm gonna close a post on this blog with a quote

A fake person, have an image to maintain
A real person, just don't care
-i really dont know who said it

Ciao!
xoxo

when people think you are going to itikaf, but you are actually update your blog

Well, until now, this is the longest post title i've made
Now here, mean 12 july 2k15
Well, the title fit me well now

What can i say, i've done some shit today
Read quran and else
But, it's ok right, to keep updating this blog?

Well, i've just realized something
That, i'm turning into a different person now
I mean, that 3 imaginary friends i told you earlier
Really influencing me now

FR, she's help me to get rid of my writer block
XX, make me want to learn about a lot o' things
And SP, she's making me think about many things
And i'm turning into em'
Wait, into em' didn't mean i'm turning into a girl
I mean, if you combine them, turning them into a boy
And, that's me...

Well, i've just thinking, a cup of coffe would be great to accompany me now
Well, thanks to the environment around me
Sounds of a couple o' person reading quran, sounda of ceiling fan, warm yellow lamp, and cold weather
Give me some coffe, a laptop, and a friend to talk with, and i can write a whole "founded" chapter of my project,called as "Founded, Hurted, Rescued" (call it FHR)

Well, i'm a little bit tired you know
I almost sync my sleeping schedule, and, i can sleep at 1 am now
And it's 1.14 am

Let me tell you bout' something else
FYI, i almost turn this blog into an indonesian language blog, a few days ago
But, i cancel that post, and keep it english
Mmm, you know, i have a different source of inspiration
The one, that give me some inspiration in english, always flow freely
And the other source, that give me idea in bahasa
Cant flow freely, for an unknown reason

Well, it's getting a little bit darker now
Well, it was time for night pray, and they turned off the lamp in the mid room
But, not in the left and right wing
Well, why i'm still updating this blog?
I have one important job to do
Keeping my stuff safe

Well, let's talk bout something else...
Hmm...
The question is, what?
I have nothing to...
Wait, there's something happen
There's a mom around me
Do something with her phone, i dont know what, but i think, she's opening her social media account
Well, what's the difference with me then?
The difference is, she's a girl, with 3 son and 1 daughter, her daughter are crying, and he still hold her phone, like there's nothing happen
A bad kind of parent right?

Well, let's talk bout' something else
Well, i'm tired...
That's it, and...
Bye!
xoxo

Sabtu, 11 Juli 2015

when the last time i post something?

Well, the answer of that question is
A few days ago...
But, it feels weird that i abandon this blog for a couple of days

Ok, i will tell you something
I've just get rid of my writer block! \^v^/
Well, a few post ago, when i post about being too tired
I start my project again, and now, using 3rd person POV
Well, i'm a little bit stuck again, i don't know what the main character name i shall give
And....
Well...

I'm a little bit bored right now
And i'm gonna tell you something

Remember about my imaginary friend?, FR?
Just like what i tell you in the earlier post
She's just an interpretation of my character
What if i tell you, i still have XX and SP beside me
And, yeah, three imaginary friends
And, all of em' are a girl
Ok, i will describe em' for you
Start with FR, she's an interpretation for creativity, freedom, social responsibility and nature
XX, interpretation of logic, science, and knowledge
Last, it's SP, interpretation of Revolution, open minded, and difference

Ok, maybe, i'm done with this
I need to go, this phone is getting overheated
Ciao!
xoxo

Jumat, 10 Juli 2015

give up (help me!)

Ok, it's been 13 and half hour i didn't sleep to synchronize my sleeping schedule with my routine schedule...
Maybe, i just gonna sleep for a couple o' hour, and wake to update this blog again, and play some game

Wait, i remember, this kind of moment, ever happen to me before, i didn't sleep, for more than 24 hour!
Well, that moment, i slept until 1 pm, and stay awake till' 3 pm tomorow, it's 25 hour
How can i stay so long?
School, and shit....
I almost sleep at school that day

Well, cut this crap...
I need your help
I'm trying to work on my new project, and i need a name
Yep, a name for the main character
Well, she's (yep, a girl), a detective, metropolitan women, worker, born in a police family
And, local, i mean, she's insider, not a foreigner
Maybe you can give me some advice?
Contact me if you have any!

Well, i'm tired, and need some rest
Bye
xoxo

came out of nowhere

Ok, i tell you something
That, i've got an idea now! XD
You know, it just came out of nowhere
And, i feel inspired now...

Wait, who feel inspired at 3.17 dawn?
Well, what if i tell you, idea, came everytime
Maybe, we've just miss it whe it comes

Ehm, ok, i just wanna tell you something
Well, i actually want to post some satire shit here
Some sarcasm article
But, you know, it's a heavy shitload
I didn't think, this blog can accept something that heavy
Let's make some analogy now
This blog is a glass, i usually fill it with water, sometimes juice or milk
And, one day, i fill it with a barrel of gasoline, add a kilo's of RDX, and burn it
So, that glass will break (Even before i burn it)

Well, i will try to calibrate my sleeping time today
Syncrhonize it with my routine sleeping schedule
So, i will wake up at 6 o'clock everyday
I will tell you the method
First, i need to tell you, that i still didn't sleep yet since 7pm yesterday
In number, it's already 9 hour
I need to reach 24 hour, to sleep
The logic is, when you stay awake for 24 hour, with a small amount of rest in the middle, you will sleep everytime you rest, anything happen
I will try this method, it's though, but i'll try it
Because, my laptop and PC always accompany me

Well, i need to tell you something
Since 4th July, a few days ago
Every post in this blog, is considered as a part of my daily writing challange
What i must do, with that challange?
The answer is simple, i must write at least one thing everyday, an essay, opinion, poem, fiction work, even a diary like this
Indonesian, english, javanese, or even russian cyrillyc
All kind of that shit, is acceptable

Well, it's been a long time, i didn't tell you anything about FR
Well, it's been a long time too, i didn't hear anything from her
And, again, i told you that FR is an imaginary friends
She's only an interpretation of my mind, usually when i write about frienship or love, well, sometimes she's come whenever she want to come

Well, i'm trying to dug my mind again, to tell you whatever i want to tell you

And, i've found something great right now
I'm still fell...
How to express that feeling?
Uh, let me express it with whatever word i can pick
Weird
I feel weird, because, this blog, is turning into an english language blog
I mean, a blog that use english i every post
Well, i dont have any problem with that
But, how about you?
I mean, i have a couple o' friends who understand english
Some of em' can speak english influently
But, how about the rest?
My friend, who understand english (i mean, really understand it), just like what i said, not too many
And the rest of it
Uh, i dont know about them...

Well, maybe it's time to go
Bye!
xoxo

silently, thinking

Ok, i want to tell you about a couple o' things
Sorry, did i say a couple?
It's actually, more than a couple o' things

First, i want to confess something...
That, i fall in love right now
With who?
Let the time answer...

Second, i'm bored as f*ck right now...
You know, the feeling when you haven't meet your friend for a long time
Yep, that feeling fit me right now

Third, well, i've just try to install steam again on my laptop, and it works! \^v^/

Fourth, emm, maybe the last, because my mom told me to sleep
Well, i'm a little bit confused, why this blog, turned into an english language blog
Well, i'll tell you about it later

Need to go!
Au revoir !
xoxo

Rabu, 08 Juli 2015

i'm bored as hell

Lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala

Cut this crap immideately
I'm bored right now
I'm waiting for....

Dadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadada

And still didn't come

I'm bored as hell
Maybe look like a drunken man
But, a combination between love and boredom
Is messy

Trapped, in a sinkhole full of love, and boredomness
Make me stressed out
I'll sleep earlier now, think about that love, and forget about boredomness

Bye...
xoxo

hoping too much

Well, a few month ago, i talk with one of my friend
I forgot, what are we talking about, actually
But, i remember, i said
"Remember, don't hope too much, or you will lost so much"
And, she said (yeah, she's a girl)
"Yep, that's right"

And i'm trapped in that phase of life
Where you hope too much...
Well, maybe, it's because i'm bored
Or, because i'm hungry

Well, whatever the reason is, i'm hoping for many things now
Inspiration and idea, friends that geeky enough to talk with me, a book, gaming laptop, and a girlfriend...

Well, let's cross the border, let's get out from the topic

Well, what shall i do now?
It's 4.55 in the morning, it's too late to eat something, and too early to do everyday shit
So, i'm trapped in a gap between dawn, and day

What shall i do?
If you have any advice for me, give it straight to me...

Well, let's get back to the topic
So, is hope for something is bad?
No, it's not bad, just, dont hope for something too much
For you, who still hope too much, i have some advice for you
Hope, then act
Simple right?
Sound's simple, how about do it?
That's the hardest part

Well, i'll stop this post here, gonna take a bath ASAP
And, bye!
xoxo

Selasa, 07 Juli 2015

frightened

Ok, i'm starting this post at 21.13, and i'm a little bit frightened...

Ok, the question is, why?
Why am i frightened?

Well, it's a long story, started at 5 july, a few hour before the dawn
When i talk about ghost sighting with my friend, in the school
We talk for a couple o' hour, with one of my friend, record our chat with a camera
We talk about a lot o' things, started from urban legend, paranormal phenomenon, and, our own ghost sighting...

And, the last part, make me feel scared, especially wheni tell my friend, about my own experience, my own experience that happen a few meter from where i write this...

Ok, i'm not too scared, a few hour earlier, but...
This anxious feeling come when i read about dyatlov pass incident, where a group of hiker, died for a mysterious reason in kholat syakhl, they have a very weird scar, one of them lost her tongue, eyes, and lips, two if em' only wear their underwear, and another two of em' has a radioactive trace on their clothes

And, i search more about unexplained death happen around the world
And, i read all of em'

And, oh, lucky me, i'm not freightened anymore now
And now, i'm gomna spend my time, waiting for the one, who still didn't come up...

Well, byr my friend!
xoxo

boredom

Boredom, define as a state of bored feeling
A condition, where you feel so bored

Yap, that's my condition right now, boredom

Well, just like what i said a couple post ago
I can't relieve my boredom, i can't cure it...

Umm, boredom, combined with tired feeling, make me feel useless, can't do anything
Maybe, a couple hour later, my tired-boredomness will be combined with thirst and hunger

Well, let's cut that crap
Talk about something else

Ok, have you seen something different with this blog lately?
Well, you can't miss that difference, because you're reading it now
Yep, i'm using to much english in the latest post
This post, and a post before this post
Two post before this?, i'm using a lot of english...

What actually happen?
Why am i write a lot of english lately?

I tell you something...
I feel atracted with chromosome XX now....
What does it mean?
If you don't know what it means, you are not geeky enough...

I really....
Feel something weird now...

And, sahur time is about to end
I need some drink, and sleep
Bye ^-^

Senin, 06 Juli 2015

Different

Different
What it means to be different?
I mean, c'mon, it's ok to be a different kind of person

But, a lot of people think, being different, is just like being an abnormal person
Well, that was a kind of shitty stereotype
But, that's what people think

Ok, i'll tell you something
Everyone is literally different from each other
Literally...

Yep, everyone is different, nobody in this world, ever created to be same with other person
The one who make us same, is the society standard
A standard that made by the society we lived in

And, if everyone is literally different, and abnormal for each other
Who's the one, who actually normal?
This question is weird, but i know the answer

Everyone is normal, depend on their standard...
Or i can said, society standard

Well, if there's someone is below the society standard, people always said that he's different, abnormal, and other shit like this
Let's see it, from other perspective, from the 'abnormal' perspective, they see us, as a different person too, as an abnormal society

So, what is normality?
Well, let's count that as 'undescribeable'
Because, normality for every person has a different standard

Let's just live with that 'abnormal' person
Living life in peace...
Because, in other perspective, we are abnormal too

Bye!
xoxo

Another boring day coming

Ok, i just want to tell you all
That, for a couple o' week later, i'll be free again from school, daily routine, and other shit like that
But, i'll be bored as hell at house

Mm, ok, i can play some game at my house, but, i'll be bored too
And, how about watching some movie?
Well, i simply can't focusing myself to the movie without snack or drink (it's ramadhan), and i'll end up in a sinkhole full with boring shit
Write?, that's one of my hobbies right?
Same, i can't make myself focus at writing shit when i'm hungry or thirsty

Ok, i need some advice now, i need something that can cure my bored feeling

And, i'm a little bit bored right now
With nobody geeky enough to talk about writing shit, or dump of social psychology science
Or just a little chit chat

And, i need to go
Bye...

Minggu, 05 Juli 2015

It's me

Ok, aku sebenernya ada waktbbuat post tadi sore, tapi aku sengaja gak post apapun
Karena aku ngantuk :v
Ya, ini karena post kemarin, yang aku ceritain tentang ngedit foto temen, itu aku kerjain terus sampe pagi

Ok, i'm a computer geek then, aku kerjain terus dari jam 10 malem sampe sahur

Tapi, apa yang kulakukan antara postingan terakhir sampe jam 10 (postingan terakhir kira-kira jam 6 sore)
Aku, mulai dari jam 6, aku buka puasa, nunggu sebentar sampai isya' terus dilanjutin tarawih (oke, ini adalah sebuah keniscayaan)
Dan, setelah tarawih, aku mulai keliling daerah sekolah, ke rumah guru yang ada di deket sekolah (numpang nonton tv, ada sepak bola :v)
Dan, ngobrol...

Ok, aku tiap hari memang ngobrol
Tapi, ada satu hal yang membekas di pikiranku soal obrolan itu
Membekas, sebuah bekas dipikiranku, yang bertuliskan...
"I'm a nerd"

Hahaha, ya, i'm a totally nerd
Over-literated person :v

Yup, aku tahu itu tadi malam, waktu aku ngobrol sama seorang cewek (kapan-kapan kalo aku mau, aku coba ceritain)di dalam mobil (aku gak mesum loh :v)
Dan, ngobrol tentang banyak hal
Usually, it's social psychology shit...

Well, mana ada sih anak smp yang ngobrol soal sigmund freud, ideologi, dan lainnya, sama orang yang jenjang sekolahnya lebih tinggi?
Pake bahasa inggris lagi (70-80% kalo gak salah)

Oke, aku ingat dia bilang, membaca tidak seburuk itu
Memang, i don't have any problem with being a nerd
But....
Artinya, di sekolahku, aku harus berjalan sendiri
Because, i'm almost totally different...
I think, it's better than being an illiterate person
Who almost never read or write anything
And, there's a correlation between literacy rate and crime (2/3 of student who cannot read proficiently till' the end of 4th grade, are ended up in jail or welfare)

And, again, read and write, is not as bad as people think, really, it's actually addictive!
And i can't stop....

Well, i need to go now
It's already late night, 23.53
And, i need some sleep (i'm not sleeping yesterday right?)

Bye!
And remember my advice, read and write!
xoxo

Suasana pagi

Aku ada di sekolah ini, di pagi hari
Dan, masih banyak yang tidur :v

Oke, aku tadi malam baru nginep di sekolah dan, aku gak bisa tidur...
aku ceritain aja dari awal, sebelum sekarang masuk, waktu liburan, waktu tidurku itu berubah
padahal biasanya jam 9-12 aku udah mulai tidur, dan jam 5-7 pagi, aku udah mulai bangun
sekarang, tidurku mulai jam 6 pagi, sampe jam 12 siang :v
Oke, waktu tidurku tetap mengikuti saran tidur optimal, walaupun jamnya berubah

Dan, sinkronisasi waktu tidurku, sulit dilakukan :v

Oke, tadi malam aku masih ngedit foto temenku, sampe pagi aku sahur, terus akhirnya, sampe di jam ini

Oke, aku mungkin akan sesegara mungkin posting tentang hal yang aku sukai tadi malam :v

Bye guys!
xoxo

Sabtu, 04 Juli 2015

Memilih menyendiri

Aku ada di sini sekarang, di sekolahku, di sebuah kelas sepi di pojok sekolah
Hmm, tunggu dulu, ngapain aku malem-malem ke sekolah?
Kebetulan di sekolah ada buka bersama, dan kegiatan darul arqom (aku lebih suka nyebut 'nginep di sekolah')
Dan, aku memilih kelas ini karena, tempat ini sepi, cocok untuk mencari ide dan inspirasi, brainstorming

Oke, tempat ini memang sepi, di kelasku ini sekarang cuma ada 3 orang, aku, dan 2 temanku
kebetulan aku nulis ini pake laptop salah satu temenku, yang minta fotonya diedit pake photoshop
Dan, aku sekalian aja minta ijin sama dia buat ngeblog

Oke, sekarang di kelas ini, cahayanya remang-remang, memang di kelas ini ada lampu putih, tapi tinggal satu (aslinya ada 4) dan sudah cukup tua, jadi udah mulai redup

Aku ada di sini sekarang, memandangi yang ada di luar
dan saat aku mulai nulis ini, 2 temanku yang tadi ada di kelas sudah keluar, mungkin untuk ngambil makanan lagi dari meja buffet, atau ngambil snack dan minuman

Well, suasananya cukup aneh, ada musik dari luar (untuk menghibur tamu), dan ada juga suara-suara orang ngobrol
di sebelahku cuma ada sepiring nasi goreng, ayam, dan semangkuk mie pangsit
dan sebuah laptop gaming toshiba qosmio punya temen

Oke, nginep di sekolah bawa laptop, itu aneh
tapi dua anak yang bawa laptop itu emang boleh, karena mereka berdua sudah nggak sekolah di sini, sudah lulus, salah satu dari beberapa anak yang kuceritakan di postinganku yang berjudul generasi yang biasa saja (bulan lalu)

Oke, di lantai bawah (aku ada di lantai 2)
ada suara temen-temenku yang lagi maen petak umpet :v
ok, anak smp main petak umpet sekarang terkesan aneh, dan anak-anak itu maen petak umpet sekarang, daripada di atas gak ngapa-ngapain, aku diatas ya, karena aku lagi ngedit foto temen, dan sekarang pemilik laptop disebelahku udah dateng :v

Oke, aku harus pergi
xoxo

Jumat, 03 Juli 2015

Perubahan (pengalaman singkat hari ini)

Oke, aku ceritain aja apa yang barusan terjadi hari ini
Jadi hari ini kan, aku ada jadwal buka bersama di rumah salah satu temen, bareng orang tua, guru, dan murid yang lain.
Untuk rencana awal sih sebenernya kau bakal dititipin di rumah salah satu temen yang lain, tapi karena ada temen yang mau ke rumah si tuan rumah buka bersama, ya aku ikut aja, mumpung aku belum pernah kesini (Aku sekarang ada di rumah tempat buka bersama), dan katanya Wi-Fi nya cepet :v
Oke, sekarang aku ada di tempat ini sama beberapa temen yang lain, yang kebetulan memutuskan untuk dateng duluan, aku minjem helm dari temenku yang aslinya aku mau datengin duluan

Aku aman-aman aja disini, sampai tiba-tiba ibuku kirim pesan ke aku lewat facebook
*jeng-jeng

Oke, ibuku bilang kalo aku dijemput di sekolah (nah loh), terus aku dibilangin ngapain ke sini duluan, padahal aslinya aku disuruh dateng ke tempat yang pertama
Ya aku bilang aja kalo aku sekalian aja kesini, tapi nanti malem tetep dijemput di rumah temen yang pertama
Dan, akhirnya ibuku minta nomor telpon si pemilik rumah tempat buka bersama :v :v
Oke, sekarang aku aman aja disini, dengan Wi-fi yang cukup cepet :v

Oke, a small dosage of shitty experience story will make me relaxed a little bit
And, i gotta go now
xoxo :)

early morning cloud

Yep, just like the title...
I start to write this post at 3:49, early morning
And, it's cloudy outside
A cloudy early morning

Ok, i just wanna tell you something
Well, i already tell you this
But, let me tell you again

Remember in the couple post ago, i told you about probability daydream?
I feel it again...

Yep, thinking about many probabilities that will happen in our life
So many probabilities...

About, how my life gonna be, if i were...
Many thing's, i think about many thing's

And in one of many probabilities, i talk with my imaginary friend, a.k.a FR
She hold her cup of cappucino, staring at the sunset, sit beside me, in a cliff, in a sea shore
(I dont know where she can get a cup of cappucino in a cliff)
And she said "thank you for this experience..."

Kamis, 02 Juli 2015

Pengakuan Besar

Hohoho
I'm back with another load o' useless post
Dan kali ini aku bakal ngelakuin hal keren
Mengaku...

Hmm, mengaku itu sulit bro, sulit....
Dan aku akan melakukannya sekarang
Dan akan dimulai dengan pengakuan tentang
FR

K, aku udah nulis tentang dia sejak lama, oke i'll tell everything about it

She's a girl (yeah, why i say she then?)
She's smart
She's mysterious
And she's imaginary...

Imaginary?, imaginer?
He'em, dia sepenuhnya palsu, imaginer

Well, aku mulai memikirkan tentang teman imajiner sejak....
Kalau gak salah sih, sejak MH18 juara 2 di acara kreatif selamanya
Sejak itu, aku mulai nulis lebih intens

Tunggu, terus FR itu akronim dari apa?
Jujur, gak ada...
Heeh, gak ada kepanjangannya
Inisialnya begitu karena
FR itu dua huruf pertama yang lewat di pikiranku waktu itu

Ok, i already tell you ma secret :v
Gotta go
xoxo :v

Kelam

Pagi ini, cukup kelam, baik cuacanya ataupin suasananya
Kelam cuacanya, karena pagi ini saja aku tidak bisa memandang ke langit
Kelam suasananya, karena....
Aku males :v

Oke, judul sama isi postingan ini bakal bernasib sama seperti beberapa postingan sebelumnya, gak nyambung, melenceng jauh
Udah, soal judul dan postingan gak usah dibicarain lagi, yang pasti sekarang, aku bakal cerita sesuatu

Jadi, sejak aku mulai rutin ngeblog ini, tulisan-tulisanku pada mangkrak semua
Iya, aku masih ngerjain, kadang-kadang
Dan sekalinya aku mulai ngerjain lagi, gaya penulisannya udah berubah :v
Jadi mirip postingan terakhir yang baru dibuat

Ya, kalo postingannya bergaya sastra, puitis gitu gak apa
Nah ini postingan bahasanya acakadul begini masak mau jadi karya tulis :v

Cerita lagi aja, menyambung postingan di awal bulan puasa
Di tengah bulan ramadhan ini, suasana desa waktu sahur masih kerasa banget
Jadi memikirkan lagi, tentang probabilitas yang aku post di beberapa postingan sebelumnya
Dan FR juga, dia ada di semua pikiranku, hampir semuanya

Oke, mungkin sekarang saatnya istirahat lagi
Karena nanti masih sekolah
Aku akan membiarkan diriku tidur di suasana seperti ini, suasana desa, yang kelam
Eh, kok denger tentang desa yang kelam, kok aku jadi pingin nulis novel misteri ya?
Nanti aja deh di sekolah biar kukerjain, sekalian ngobrol ama temen, nyari inspirasi...
Bye...

Rabu, 01 Juli 2015

Respon

Huh, mungkin aku masih harus menunggu lebih lama lagi, entah sampai kapan
Sejak kontak pertama, sampai sekarang, belum ada respon sama sekali
Mungkin aku masih harus menunggu lebih lama lagi, sampai waktu yang belum bisa ditentukan

Soal apa kira-kira cerita diatas?
Pengalaman pribadi kah?
Atau cerita dari orang lain?
Huh, bukan, ini karanganku aja :v *dem

Oke, aku ceritain aja tentang apa yang terjadi hari ini
Hari pertama dimana rutinitas terjadi kembali
Dimana, hari ini, hari pertama sekolah...

Hmm, aku mencatatkan diri sebagai salah satu anak paling rajin :v
Karena waktu yang lain belum dateng, aku udah dateng duluan, bareng 3 orang lainnya, gurunys pun pada pemalas, belum ada yang dateng

Well, waktu belakangan ini berjalan cukup lambat, mungkin karena bosan
Oke, sekarang tiba-tiba aku ngerasa hal aneh
Lebih tepat kalu dibilang mikirin sesuatu
Lebih pas lagi kalau dibilang, mikirin banyak hal

Kembali ke beberapa postingan sebelumnya
Ada kata-kata yang terpikirkan olehku barusan..
Why am i so stupid in the past?
Dank, i so stupid in the past!

Mungkin aku akan post lagi besok pagi, biarkan post ino menggantung dulu

Bye...

kembali, ke rutinitas

Awal aku nulis ini, jam 4 lebih 30 menit, beberapa saat habis sholat subuh.

Hari ini, hari rabu, tanggal 1 juli 2k15, tepat satu hari setelah leap second
Dan tepat pada hari ini, aku mulai masuk sekolah lagi....

Yap, tepat seperti judul postingan ini, kembali ke rutinitas...
Yap, rutinitas, hal yang disebut-sebut sebagai penyebab stress itu, mendatangiku

Well, aku masih bisa bertahan dari serangan rutinitas selama ini
Aku masih tetap waras :v
Nggak seberapa stress (kata seberapa disini, berarti ada beberapa bagian lain yang masih terpapar stress)

Oke, aku bener butuh waktu lama untuk nulis ini, karena kulakukan sambil ngelakuin yang lain
Aku nulis bagian ini aja udah jam 5

Oke, mungkin aku akan berangkat sekolah awal, sekitar jam 06:30
Mau liat aja, ada apa disana sekarang
Walaupun beberapa hari yang lalu, aku sempet kesana ama seorang teman
Aku juga pengen memulai lebih awal, karena jadwal hidupku belakangan ini jadi amburadul
Malah kadang-kadang, aku tidur jam 6, bangun jam 3 sore

Oke, ini awal yang buruk, karena sekarang aku udah mulai ngantuk lagi, mungkin cuci muka pake air dingin cukup berguna

Hmm, ini hari rabu...
Dan aku sudah nggak ada ide lagi buat nulis
Byee!

Leap second

Oke, baru aja beberapa menit yang lalu, dimulai dari aku mulai nulis ini, leap second terjadi

The scientist try to sync the earth time with cesium clock time
Gak tau maksudnya?
That's why they create google :v

Oke, bahasan kita malem (atau pagi?) ini bukan leap second
Karena aku masih belum banyak tau soal itu

Oke, bahasan sekarang adalah, nanti masuk sekolah :v
Kembali ke rutinitas normal
And that things stresses people up :v

Ok, im done
I have no more idea :v
Bye!